Recovery Rocks?

Today I am not feeling recovery. I haven't felt it for a few days. I am just so not happy with my life. I really need to get out of this funk. I think it's because I didn't see my family on Sunday. I will get to see my mom today if she lets me come and visit. I no longer will try and live for them. I really want to have a break from this recovery thing. That doesn't mean I want to relapse. I just want to spend time with my family now.. Does that make sense? I have to figure out when I am supposed to meet with my sponsor now. I hope its soon!