Help wanted

My depression,panic and fears are taking over me. I need serious help and have no insurance.  What can I do? I really want to do impatient treatment somewhere but don't know how without insurance.  I am to the point of being afraid to leave my house. I feel like giving up. I cant fight this battle anymore. I just wish God would take me away sometimes. My mom wouldn't have to worry as much or cry all the time. I can't even focus on my school work. Im scared to be in a public place. I need intense therapy to figure out why. Please God help me figure out the answers.

Last night I woke up with horrible stomach pains so i got up and went to the bathroom. I just sat there and moaned with no relief...tmi alert...and then all of a sudden i started to feel my whole body go on fire again. The main difference is my hearing started to go and i fell to the floor. I laid there for about 5 minutes til it all came back. I have no idea what is going on with me and honestly im really scared.

Panic

My new struggle is panic attacks. I just had a really bad one. Like my whole back,legs and feet were on fire. I had to take my anxiety meds to push thru. It's crazy bc all we were doing was driving in thw truck. No food no problems..i really hate these things and cant wait til i have better control over them.

I Said YES!!!!

So Sunday Peter asked me to marry him! Here is the back story... last Monday we decided to look at rings, Finally!!! It was right before my hair appt but we found one that we could both agree on. They got my size and were about to start the credit application but I had to leave before they finished b/c I had to make it to my appt. When I got home, he told me that he got denied for credit but we would find a way..fast forward to Sunday... I was having a rough day that morning, so we decided to get out of the house for some Starbucks and the newspaper. Well as I was by the closet getting my jacket on he handed me a box. I thought they were earrings or something small as he couldn't get the ring. Well
I opened the box and there it was! He then said,
"Well, will you marry me?" Of course I said yes and couldn't be more happy!