Long Road to Recovery

On 12/29/10 I had surgery to close the open wound. The Dr thought it was taking to long (FINALLY) and he stapled me all up. Tomorrow I go in and hopefully they will remove the 5 staples. I am in pain but I'd rather have the pain than the sickness from the pain meds that I get.

Two days after that surgery, I ate a little food and then all of a sudden, dumping took over. It totally caught me off guard b/c its something that I normally eat. I got sick and then the hands went numb. This has happened before but both Peter and my Auntie Bobbie were there to help me out. So I was alone and that made me panic. All of a sudden, I couldn't feel my hands, I went to get hot water for tea and my hands cramped up, so much so that I could not hold the cup. I sat on hold with the nurse line but as I waited, it got worse. I tried calling my sister but she was not answering so I had to call 9-1-1. That was the first time in my life that I had to call 9-1-1 and I felt so bad when they came to my house. They took me in the ambulance to the ER just to make sure I was ok. They made me feel like I was a crazy person! I honestly did not know that I was having a panic attack, if I did I never would've called 9-1-1. It was so weird that may hands were stuck together and I was all alone. The nurse could not get ahold of Peter so I had to find a ride home quick. I called my friend and co worker Lynn and she came right away to get me. She is the best person ever and I am so thankfully that God has put her in my life. They sent me home with a 5 pill prescription for Lorazapam (sp?) which is a joke.. I can't wait to see my therapist and discuss that ER visit lol.

Onto more positive notes.. I was trying to think of something for a NY resolution...weight, well I am losing that so I came up with 2 things I want to work on:

1.Becoming a Vegan
I went online to peta.org and signed their 30 day petition to not eat meat. What made me make the change is the surgery I had. I have tried to eat meats but my body doesn't really digest meat like it used to. Then I watched a vegetarian show on The Cooking Channel and there are so many tasty meals and ideas. I love veggies so I am going to give it a shot for 30 days. The only problem is Peter is a HUGE meat eater, so my meals will just be like regular minus the meats.
2.Stay out of office drama
So there is always drama at work right? Well my goal is to stay out of it. I am sure at first people are going to think that I am crabby b/c I am not talking but I am going to do everything to keep to myself. My co worker is going to help me out with that. I will keep home and work separate b/c mixing them and getting involved in office drama, really pisses me off!!!

I really hope I can go back to work Tuesday b/c I hate staying at home, I feel lazy and weak. I am going to try to post daily, sounds like a broken record but it will eventually happen!